Today I decided to dive into Blake’s nursery a little bit, which is a BIG task considering it’s literally just stuffed full of all of her things in a not organized fashion. And don’t fret she’s scheduled to make her entrance into the world in almost less than three months–no rush or anything (insert embarrassed emoji!). I swear life is just REALLY busy all the time, if I’m not working (which is generally what I’m doing) I’m trying to keep up with housework, which is most times an epic fail, or I’m trying to grab some husband/puppy/baby belly time (my favorite)! But excuses, excuses, I finally made a list the other day and told the husband that we’re tackling these projects for the next few weekends before she gets here! I’m such a planner, so I know that if I don’t feel completely put together before she arrives I’ll be one hot mess, more so than usual anyways! So back to diving into her nursery, today I gave myself the task of going through all of her clothes, and she has more than I know what to do with! Takes after her Mama’s heart 😉 I separated each item by sizes, pulled out the bottoms from the tops, etc, etc. Then I cried a little, for several reasons–Marcus and I wanted this sweet little girl for SO long, we prayed, we cried, we begged, we did all that we could for over two years. Now, the time is here, it’s really here! No more dreaming, wishing and hoping! And she’s going to be here so soon, which was the second part of my crying spell. The anxiety part, the oh my gosh I have wanted her SO long, but am I ready? Am I really ready to be a Mom? What if I’m awful at it, what if I mess up, all of the worst possible things ran through my head. But then again, what is Motherhood without bumps and bruises? It’s all a learning experience, for everyone right? Next thing I know, I’m holding this sweet little dress and looking at her cute little shoes and crying even harder! She’s going to wear these, I get to dress her and love her and care for her any time I want! And best of all, the endless snuggles and smell of baby (the good smells of course! But seriously I LOVE baby smell!!).
So I took a deep breath, laughed at myself a little because I knew probably 75% of my crying was due to pregnancy hormones and then got REALLY excited! I can’t wait to be a Mom, I can’t wait to be stressed and worried and constantly scatter brained (more so than I already am..)! Because as long as it means I have my sweet little family right by my side I am the happiest lady in the world and have all the love I need.
Now back to her closet, remember what I was originally talking about before I got all side tracked? I love organizing and loved looking through all of her clothes and secretly planning each outfit out in my head and imagining her in it! This little summer outfit was one of my favorites I came across today, it’s from Go Fish + I convinced them to giveaway a $100 shop credit (you’re welcome). All you have to do is make sure you’re following both of us on Instagram (@positivelyoakes + @shopgofish) + comment below (click the leave a comment button under the blog title at the top) and tell me what your favorite part of being a Mom/Dad is?!
Happy Friday y’all, I love you all truly!