I wasn’t going to blog today. It was a day from hell and this morning I said nope. I’m not working today, Blake is in serious pain and I’m running on 5 hours of sleep total in the last 48 hours. However as I rocked Blake to sleep tonight after an extremely long day I thought, yes. I am going to blog tonight for two reasons. One I love writing, it’s my outlet and two, because I want to remember today. Not for the pain and chaos, but because we made it through it and that’s something I want to remember.
Today started last night. Last night we ended up in urgent care because Blake hadn’t pooped in over a week. (Sorry TMI…but this whole post is pretty much about poop. ha) She was screaming in pain early last evening, so finally I called the on call pediatrician and she recommended we go to urgent care. When we got there it was PACKED and when you have a baby in pain that’s the last thing you want to see. So after waiting 20 minutes we finally checked in and waited another hour. Blake did pretty well for the most part. On and off screams, but we kept her pretty occupied with a bottle and Mickey Mouse clubhouse on my phone. Finally we went back. The doctor checked her out and ran an x-ray on her abdomen that showed she was REALLY backed up. (Apparently this is abnormal because she is primarily breastfed.) So she was given a couple of suppositories, we were told to follow up with her pediatrician tomorrow and we headed home.
Well….we got home and NOTHING. Those were supposed to help her poop within an hour. Side note, who would’ve guess when you became a parent that there would be days when all you talk about was poop! All you hoped for was poop…#parenthood. Ha! Anyways, back to what I was saying, nothing happened. All week long I had given her prunes, apple juice, miralax, you name it I had probably tried it and now these weren’t even working!
I was a mess. She was a mess. We all were a mess.
So I got her ready for bed (now being almost 11 and her bedtime is 7:30) and after a struggle she was finally asleep around midnight. I crawled into bed, exhausted and in tears and crashed almost instantly. Only to be woken by Blake’s screams an hour later. Usually I get pretty frustrated when she doesn’t sleep, just because I’m exhausted and have a really hard time not sleeping and well…it’s a fault I need to work on (so judge me. 😉 ). However last night I felt bad. I knew she was in pain and it was the worst cry I had ever heard from her. It broke my heart and I instantly ran to pick her up. I rocked her back to sleep and ended up falling asleep in the glider with her, holding on tight because I just loved her so much and snuggle are the BEST. Then around 2:30 I put her down in her crib and went back to bed.
About an hour and a half later she was up again in tears. This time I brought her to our bed and rubbed her back and belly for about an hour.
Seriously I didn’t know what heartache was until this moment. My heart ached watching her scream in pain. It’s the worst feeling in the world not being able to take that pain away from her.
By 4:30 we were up and awake for the day. It was one of those, screw it no one is sleeping so we might as well get up, kind of mornings. We sat in bed and proceeded to count down the hours until her pediatrician’s office opened. That was the worst possible thing I ever decided to do…those 3 and a half hours DRAGGGEEDDD. We watched YouTube videos, listened to music and I listened to her babble at the ceiling.
Finally, it was 8am and I was probably their first phone call for the day. They scheduled us for 10:15 and we headed over to my parent’s house. My poor baby cried almost the entire way there and it broke my heart. Seriously though you should have seen us in the car this morning. Now looking back it’s funny, at the time not so much, but Howie was barking at everything, Blake was screaming in the backseat and I was sobbing like a child. Haha! It was a disaster. You know it’s bad when Sonic wasn’t even helping.
Once we made it there Blake took a bath, which she loved and it saved my sanity. I jumped on a phone meeting I couldn’t miss really quickly, answered a few emails and then we headed to the doctors. Long story short, the doctor said her entire large intestine was blocked and completely full. He gave us a remedy and some medicine and sent us on our way to follow up with him Friday. I started everything right away when we got home and she seemed much more content. Still had not pooped, but was not screaming, so I took it!
The day continued on like this, screams, fussiness, giggles, it was an off/on thing all day. Finally around 5, I hit my limit. I was so tired, I had been working to finish a few things I had to get done, other things weren’t working out and Blake still didn’t feel good and STILL hadn’t pooped. I lost it. My poor husband. I was in tears, I was screaming, it was a disaster. (And there you have it–I’m a hot mess 😉 ha!) So we got out of the house and went and walked around the mall. I bought a dozen chocolate chip mini cookies from Mrs. Fields and I ate every, single, last one of them as I walked around and pushed Blake in her stroller.
Eventually we ended up back home, ate to-go Olive Garden and gave Blake another suppository. GUESS WHAT THOUGH?! That DID THE TRICK! She didn’t poop a ton, definitely not as much as she should have, but she did a little and that’s a start. I could happy dance. It’s a little disgusting how excited I am over poop, but heck after this past week, especially the last 24 hours it was like winning the lottery.
Here’s the thing though, I’m still exhausted and had way too much junk food/Sonic Dr. Peppers today, but WE MADE IT. We conquered this hard day and we’re still alive and well. It’s all about those little victories y’all and today was one of them. Plus, I got so many baby snuggles and who doesn’t love that?!
So here’s to hopefully more dirty diapers in the next 24 hours and a good night sleep!! Though I’m not crossing my fingers for that last one 😉